Bizzare

17.06.2021, Weird day! Literally, a weird one! I woke to find myself distressed thinking I wasn’t doing good enough in life. I wasn’t feeling satisfied with anything. Felt my CV wasn’t good enough making me hit the rock bottom of emotions. Had this feeling that I must vent it out to someone but, wasn’t able to. Not even to mom. Picked me up to grab some munchies and swiped through Netflix, ended up watching nothing.

To my surprise during the midday, I got my offer letter for the post of Freelancer at a France-based magazine! Imagine what would've I done? I fell heads over heels having a plethora of thoughts! “Did I really get placed in an International magazine?” “Was I that much deserving?” “Did my CV made them love me?”

I was asked to send them, my photograph along with other stuff. Felt super energetic as I grabbed my lucky blue shirt and got ready for the click. I made myself look pretty for the picture and clicked some. Told you it was a weird day, right? There hit me, the anxiety of Pandemic-Lockdown’s weight gain! I remember how cute I used to look with not-so-chubby cheeks and the brightest smile anyone has ever had. I knew it was normal to gain a bit while one stays home without moving away from the bed. Nevertheless, I felt dejected that I even threw my phone away deciding not to send the confirmation back to the magazine!

Random thoughts ran across my head as I swiped through Instagram watching all those perfect-shaped girls doing Tik-Toks. Kept my phone aside with a sigh and closed my eyes. I then woke up after a nap to see mom's face with a warm smile. She ran her fingers through my hair as she had my head on her lap the whole time. I didn't know! She held me by my cheeks, "Had a good sleep, beautiful?"

At the end of the day, we all our mom's cutie pies! Aren't we? 💛